-I'm not a big phone person. Texting, emailing... that's great for me, but if I do a really crummy job at keeping in touch via the phone it's nothing against you. The phone doesn't like me (and vice versa).
-I hate crying. Peter will testify to this. Usually when I cry I want very much to be alone. I guess I'm embarrassed or something. Or maybe it's that my face swells up and turns red. Or maybe it's that any time I've actually cried on someone's shoulder I cry harder. I just don't like it. And my eyes hurt forever afterwards.
-I'm not a "touchy" person. It's kind of funny because I've never been the hugging/touching type, then I started dating Peter and thought I LOVED to hug, kiss...of course! Now it's back to the same old same old. Poor Peter! Don't worry I still hug and kiss my husband, but generally I won't cuddle on the couch or just hold his hand out of nowhere. It's not a conscious decision, it just doesn't come naturally for me.
-I get awkward talking about more serious/emotional things. Now this I don't do with Peter... I talk and talk and talk about everything with Peter. But for the most part, if someone were to open up to me about a trial or something hard they were going through I would probably fidget, glance at the floor and not know what to say. I promise I am not an insensitive person, I just need practice and to realize that people don't expect or want me to solve their problems. Sometimes I just need to listen (and not awkwardly).
These are some things about me that I am not necessarily proud of, but I enjoy self discovery and setting goals for improvement. I've learned a lot about myself since I got married... some of it good, some, not so good. The funny thing is, I bet a lot of the things I am just learning, my close friends and family have known all along! Isn't it funny how it works that way sometimes? Well, thanks everyone for loving me anyways. I love you all, too :)
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If you want practice on the whole phone thing you can start by calling me again:) I can't call you because my screen is broken, but I can answer! I laughed while reading this because you're right, I did know almost all of that about you. except for the awkward listening thing. I thought you were good at listening and talking to people about their problems.
I'm happy to say that after reading this, I've concluded that I know you pretty well!
And you're better at a lot of these things than you think you are - I share all kinds of stuff with you and you don't get all awkward on me! :)
Amber, I haven't looked at your blog in a long time. Chloe is so grown up!!! WOW! Sad how that happens. I hope you're doing well. Your Christmas and Chloe's birthday look like fun. It was fun reading about things we may not know about you. I didn't know some of those things. Anyway, we're looking forward to seeing you this summer. Love you.
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